Windshields are bigger than rearviews for a reason

"There was a time when I liked being a certain way, being social and having friends in different places, but when I met Khloé, that was the first time I got the urge to be like, I don’t even want to do that anymore. That’s when I knew I found somebody. I couldn’t do what I normally do. She’s too strong-willed. She’d leave me.” - Lamar Odom  


I love this quote because everyone I've ever fallen for or held out for has made me leave them. I know that sounds silly, but when you look over me or treat me like I'm a second choice, I don't really have another option. I keep holding out for the day that someone realizes they can't let me go. Because the second I get the feeling like I'm unwanted, I'm gone before you realize it.

On how marrying Khloe has changed him: 
"With men, most of the time our goal is to have what we want when it comes to women. Most men like more than one woman. Most people don't want to get married because being married, that's a responsibility. I always used to tell that to women. I don't want a girlfriend because that means I've got a responsibility. I have a responsibility to call you. I have a responsibility not to be with another woman. I have a responsibility to be there on time when you need me. With her I was like, If I do what I normally do, I'm going to lose her. And if I lose her, I think it's going to hurt a lot."


I know this blog is all over the place, but if you want the Cliffnotes version:


Boppers have contributed to the demise of the only relationship I've ever had. That's right... nfl boppers. As fate would have it, I thought we would at least make it til Valentine's day so I could say for one time in my 25 year old life, I had a valentine. Alas, no. People did try to give me fair warning, though. He didn't even make it to the league yet before it got bad. We're still friends, and I'm still going to the senior bowl if that makes sense. We just split amicably and finally said this is completely toxic. I'm uncomfortable with the amount of women that you freely alllow around you without consideration to me, and you won't have to waste your time claiming they are just friends or hearing my cry on skype. So... there's that. Sometimes you have to leave as quick as you can, even if you don't know where you going.  


Sorry this blog lacks the entertainment value. It's been a depressing evening. : /